The Thoth-FIVE OF DISKS: Worry:
Astrologically this card is Mercury in Taurus. And as shown by the reversed pentagram and the symbols of the five Hindu Tattvas, (geometric forms on the points of the pentagram, meaning Fire, Water, Air, Earth, and Spirit), the normal stability of the material world is in chaos. Everything is "upside" down.
The Qabalistic Thoth 5 of Disks card represents Geburah (severity), 5th Sephiroth on the Tree of Life, in Assiah (Material world) which is disturbing in the world of profession and monetary resources.
This is not only mental worry, common to all of us from time to time, but worry as in a dog worrying (Anglo-Saxon) sheep, whereas the dog grabs the sheep's throat in its teeth and stops the sheep from moving. It is a necessary stop to facilitate a reshuffling of emotions, mind, body, and soul. Disrupting yes, but also necessary to reconstruct a more successful state of physical prosperity.
Therefore, the 5 of Disks represents a state of strain, without the benefit of action...much like a fully drawn bow that is unable to release the horrible tension it is under for that action belongs to the bowman. In this case, our Survival-Mind -Animal Self is the bowman here, who lives in the past and fears vulnerability. To expand our personality, we must stop using our "past" as a foundation for our thought as it won't release the terrible tension it has created. The Mercurial Force, a high state of activity, is being held back by outdated and fearful emotional thought...in other words survival thinking.
The Five of Disks (Pentacles) is a wake up call, telling us that our present state of thinking cannot help us over come the natural friction of physical material and that we must see these momentary issues as a collapse of worrisome thought so that new possibilities lay open to us. Sure, we have setbacks, hardship, and conflicts, because we are using the same thought process over and over again---and unwisely expecting different results.
When ever I (The Psyche) experience the "Survival Minds" insistence of fear based thought, I just tell it," To get over yourself and get on with You, because impeccability is what We do!". This helps break up the "data-loop" of continual focus on discomfort and allowing me to appreciate what I do have and launching my body-mind-spirit trinity in new directions. We all are more than one state of mind (we talk to ourselves all the time, proving more than one occupies our thought processes), the Tree of Life shows us that we are at least 10!
Impeccability to me is to always be true to your "inner-Self", and focus on the Wonder-filled presence that, Fire, Air, Water, Earth and Spirit has created as YOU!
I know that I am "Good Enough For God", because I AM! So I also know that the "Me" I create is ever-changeable and ever-possible and ruled only by the Soul that I AM. I AM Me, is my ternary presence in the Worlds of Spirit....(Earth is one of those worlds). The Tree of Life explains Ten Spiritual Worlds----and they are US!
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