The Thoth Deck Nine of Swords, is called THE LORD OF DESPAIR AND CRUELTY, or Cruelty in short. This is Mars in Gemini; this is Yesod influencing Yetzirah in the Astral World.
With a smattering of astrological data, one knows that the fiery energy of Mars, does little good in a sign of dualities.
This "little good" is shown by the nine rusty swords, dripping blood and poison on Crowley's card. One may shudder at the despair, meanings of illness, suffering and cruelty this card represents but each of us, who are paying attention to our brain, know this to be a "inner self cruelty" of our consciousness that cuts us with the emotionally poisoned blades of embarrassment, low-self esteem, humiliation,self-condemnation, and/or inner disgust. It is the internal Slave Master software, that is installed in our personality by our culture. The Few Who Rule the Many, our enslaving rulers of Money, by controlling definition, make sure this internal-mental slaver virus is installed in your wetware before you even reach seven years old. Like rusty hooks of poisonous self futility, this is a hard one to remove! Peer pressure, just drives this poison deeper into self identity. The media, keeps slashing at your self value...."you need this....you need that....to lack them is poverty. "You are nothing " is at the very least implied, or blatantly rubbed in your face, daily, if not hour by hour. "Resistance is futile", blare the horns of the pusillanimous invertebrates who enforce "their masters will" on others. Faust never new such hell as this!
Gotcha! Life is indeed a mental thing, and indeed, we can be our own worst enemies, just by doubting our own value in the World. To see yourself as Lack, is the necessary software to continue the panicked consumerism that multinational mind programers and/or definition peddlers, want! But before any human judgement, you were already approved into being by your Higher Self. So once again, the Qabalistic axiom reads true,"Above all things, know thyself"!
It's simple really; you had to be approved by all that is Holy, to be made alive! You presence is your Judgment....and obviously you are good enough for God!
You are an Divine answer, to a Divine question, that is what Creation is !
Stop questioning yourself, and become answers instead! Action is the Fiery Spirit that moves you; reaction is usually run by the uncertain animal who thinks the whole universe is out to eat it! "I Am" dares ask, "What am I"? and you are the answer to that question, "I AM ME"!
The Nine of Swords, cruelty, is about you being your own worst enemy, divided against yourself, mentally and emotionally. Always nay-saying before you can ever start a motion. This is a moment of doubt drawn out as a life-time. Sure we doubt our selves! After all every new motion is a risk! But if the Child of Wonder, that innocent curiosity, still has "I's" in you, you're are going to "do it" anyway.
We are always striving forward, we are being Pushed along by the Inner Spiritual Self, just like Dark Energy pushes the Universe of Matter forever outwards. Life is a Driving Force...and the Body is the vehicle driven!
So what this Cruel Nine of Swords implies, is that "a house divide must fall". Get together with yourself and over throw the slaver program that is in your brain. Software can be erased even when its garbage. (G.I.G.O). All software programs know of G.I.G.O., for when software is garbage and programed in the hardware or wetware, all is operational garbage. Garbage in, Garbage out!
The Nine of Swords implies that you must get off your suffering ass of miserable perspective and rethink the programing! It's easy to fail, all you have to do is stop doing. Success, requires a stubborn optimist; your Soul is such and optimist. For even if it kills "itself" (destroys the hardware) trying to accomplish a goal, it just reincarnates and keeps at it! We all will pound out the bugs of our software (definitions), some sooner than others; but we all will do it eventually, that is the purpose of sensuality after all. The human power-tool, is also a learning tool that teaches us to discriminate by experiencing success and failure!
Your soul, will just "reabsorb" the software garbage, and try another revision of it in "Hardware" performance, that we know as "alive".
So, "get over yourself and get on with you! Impeccability is what we do''! Is a correctional software loop, that I run in my self doubting brain. It just overrides the "pity pot" of self defeating thought every time it comes on line. But installing that software loop, took determination, and plane old fashion "jack Ass " stubbornness and constant repetition of a meditation of seconds, done most minutes, until it becomes automatic. Don't you think its time, we programed our own Hard Ware! That is the real message of the Nine of Swords.
ABOVE ALL THINGS, KNOW THYSELF!
Thank you for your interest, support and comments. May you live long and prosper!