The Thoth Deck Nine of Swords, is called THE LORD OF DESPAIR AND
CRUELTY, or Cruelty in short. This is Mars in Gemini; here Yesod is
influencing Yetzirah in the Astral World.
With a smattering of
astrological data, one knows that the fiery energy of Mars, does little
good in a sign of dualities.
This "little good" is shown by the
nine rusty swords, dripping blood and poison on Crowley's card. One may
shudder at the despair, meanings of illness, suffering and cruelty this
card represents; But each of us, who are paying attention to our brain,
know this to be a "inner self cruelty" of our consciousness, as it cuts
us with the emotionally poisoned blades of embarrassment, low-self
esteem, humiliation,self-condemnation, and/or inner disgust. It is the
internal Slave Master software; the one that whips the body with emotional pain, that is installed in our Personality by
our culture. The Few Who Rule the Many, by controlling
definition, make sure this Internal-Mental Slaver is installed before
you even reach seven years old. Like rusty hooks of poisonous self
futility, this is a hard one to remove! By fearing Peer pressure, one just drives this
poison deeper into self identity. The media, keeps slashing at your self
value...."you need this....you need that....to lack them, you are poverty! ". Devaluation is at the very least implied, or blatantly rubbed in your
face, daily, if not hour by hour. "Resistance is futile!", blare the
horns of the pusillanimous invertebrates who enforce "their Masters
will" on others. Faust never new such hell as this!
Milo Manara illustrated his 9 of Air, in the yellows assigned as the color of the element air and depicting a dream like state of a painting coming alive. Perfectly applicable since he assigned the meanings of, dreams,wonder, strange mental states and danger, to the 9 of Air.
The Astrological meaning is Mars in Gemini, implying, the need to struggle and evolve or fight in a mental and communicative way.
is indeed a mental thing, and indeed, we can be our own worst enemies,
just by doubting our own value in the World. To see yourself as lack,
is the necessary software to continue the panicked consumerism that multinational mind programers and/or definition peddlers- want! But before
any human judgement stained your wet ware, you were already approved into being by your
Higher Self. So once again, the Qabalistic axiom reads true,"Above all
things, Know thyself"!
It's simple really; you had to be approved by all that is Holy, to be made alive! You presence is your Judgement....and obviously you are good enough for God!
You are an Divine answer, to a Divine question, that is what Creation is!
Stop demoting yourself with value questions, and become answers instead! Action is the
Fiery Spirit that moves you, reaction is usually run by the uncertain
animal who thinks the whole universe is out to eat it! "I Am" dares
ask, "What am I"? and you are the answer to that question, "I AM ME"!
Nine of Swords, cruelty and the 9 of Air, are about;
- you being your own worst enemy,
divided against yourself, mentally and emotionally.
- Always nay-saying
before you can ever start a motion.
- This is " a moment of doubt" drawn
out as a Life-time.
- Sure we doubt our selves. after all every new motion
is a risk! But if the Child of Wonder, that innocent curiosity,
still has "I's" in you, you're are going to "do it" anyway.
- We are
always striving forward, we are being pushed along by the Inner
Spiritual Self, just like Dark Energy pushes the Universe of Matter
forever outwards. Life is a Driving Force...and the Body is the vehicle
So what this Cruel Nine of Swords and 9 of Air imply:
- is that "a
house divide must fall". Get together with yourself and over throw the
Slaver program that is in your brain. Software can be erased from both hardware and wetware even when
its Garbage. (G.I.G.O). All software programs know of G.I.G.O., for when
software is garbage and programed in, the hardware is operational
garbage as well. Garbage in, Garbage out! You are the "observer", the Soul who is not a programed wetware.
- you must get off your ass of miserable perspective and re
think the programing! It's easy to fail, all you have to do is stop
doing. Success, is a stubborn optimist, Your Soul--- even if it kills
"itself" (destroys the hardware/wetware) trying to accomplish a goal, it just
reincarnates and keeps at it!
- We all will pound out the bugs of our
software (definitions), some sooner than others. but we all will do it
eventually, that is the purpose of sensuality after all; learning to
discriminate by experiencing success and failure!
Your soul, will
just "reabsorb" the software garbage, and try another revision of it in
"Hardware" performance, that we know as "alive". So "get over yourself and get on with you! Impeccability is what we do''! Is
a correctional software loop, that I run in my self doubting brain. It
just overrides the "pity pot" of self defeating thought every time it
comes on line. But installing that software loop, took determination,
and plane old fashion "jack Ass " stubbornness and constant repetition. Like a
meditation of seconds, done most minutes, until it becomes automatic.
Don't you think its time, we programed our own Hard Ware! That is the
real message of the Nine of Swords.
ABOVE ALL THINGS, KNOW THYSELF!
Thank you for your interest and comments. May you live long and prosper!