The Qabalistic Thoth 9 of Swords, Cruelty & The Wild Wood Tarot- Nine of Arrows:
The Thoth 9 of Swords, presents a ghastly image
of nine crooked, chipped swords, dripping blood. If this isn't gloomy
enough, we have the celestial rule of Mars in Gemini. Mars, a primal raging
hunger that has no restraint, because of the Gemini twin paradox, is a mind in war with the body.
Here's a paradox:
Most religions claim we have divinely granted freedom of choice, and
yet instead of using that god given gift of Imagination freely, we are
to become "enslaved thinkers of a doctrine of self rejection"...how then
can we be the "image of god" as fundamental religions claim? Here, the
paradox of Gemini comes into fruition, for the tendency of the twins to
argue is often an internal argument based on fear and want.
obfuscation of identity, is a perfect example of the cruelty of Martial energy in
the paradoxical twins of Gemini. Where one thing is "thought/said" and
the opposite is often done.
9 is a number of completion
and/or the most pure state of the element. 9
is also the number of the Sephira Yesod-Foundation
, on the Tree of
is on the middle pillar of the Tree of Life, and has
rectified the imbalances of the past energy disorders of Air. This,
however, does not rectify the degeneration of the energy as it continues
down the Tree.
Swords, usually depict the pure
that acts like air as its energy in motion continually heats up with
passion and cools down with rationale. In the case of the 9 of
Swords, consciousness has fallen into an unenlightened void of rational
thought, stirring heartless animal passions; passions that are of the
psychopath and the fanatic. Hence this is the character of the
inquisitor; it seems intellectual but is operating in a rage that is
without restraint. All this sounds just awful and terribly gloomy, yet,
it is the cultural foundation of "Divide and Conquer" indoctrination
technique and often the state of mind used in scientific experiments on
animals. Here, empathy is not a part of the mechanism of thought, only
the "vision" counts, no matter the means of getting there.
Our consumerism society
based on "fanning the flames" of that primitive raging hunger of self-absorbed
survival thinking in order to produce the "fanatical shopper" whose world
is always lacking self-fulfillment. It is the realm of the Neti-Neti
(Sanskrit for,"Not this-Not that") consciousness, that consumes
unrelentingly, hoping for and in the pursuit of happiness, at any cost; a futile
seeking of happiness because happiness isn't in accumulation of outer world "stuff" nor does happiness reside
in glutinous bellies nor can it be caught by pursuit, as to pursue anything, is to first declare that you don't have it. There is only
one result in the constant use of such thought and that is insanity.
many of us have enough strength in our character to know that
happiness, is not a "thing", but rather a "state of Mind" and/or an
equilibrium of the Mind's trinity, Soul, Unconsciousness and
Consciousness. Many have found
out that by treating other people with respect, ("...do unto another as
you would have done to you") we have a happier presence on this earth.
For to think well is to be well and to think ill, is to be ill.
Therefore, the 9 of Swords
is the state of consciousness that is called "wanna-be-ism", were one
not alive/happy until they achieve some future possession or goal, but
once achieved, find it to be wanting and are off in pursuit of another.
person is a corpse; a zombie, who lives only in yesterdays emotions and
uncertain futures, leaving the moment of Now vacant of their
presence. This phenomena of "walking corpse" is not a new thing that
some Hollywood director dreamt- up as the latest horror thriller.
Rather, you'll find this "living dead" concept in the two thousand year
old Gnostic Gospel of Thomas, that is part of the Nag Hammadi Library.
In paragraph 56, of the Gospel of Thomas, it is written:
"Whoever has come to understand the World has found only a corpse, and whoever has found a corpse is superior to the world. "
If you can understand this Gnostic statement, you can understand the 9
of Swords-Cruelty. Because the practice of "Self inflicted cruelty"
is going on in most human brains right now, most of us constantly
belittle ourselves, in order to appease our dogma; i.e. our
This Thoth card
isn't usually implying, that one is experiencing cruel actions from others, (unless
noted by other cards in the reading) even though that has happened in
the past or present, rather it is about self-abusive thought.Negative thinking
feeling sorry for yourself and crying about life, thinking one is a loser where one's emotions are flowing with
the tide of events, rather than being a dynamic action in life that changes events. Hence, The
Tarot 9 of Swords usually represents the personality/ego as being a victim of its own
fears and the inner spirit is shedding tears of empathy (white tears in the
back-ground) simply because the ego isn't listening to the "master
within", as it is totally focused on its own nightmare (tears of blood
from the swords). Therefore the personality has become a lost child
whose own crying "over spilt milk" drowns out the wise directions
whispered by the spirit within.
There is also a sense of anger
that leads to seclusion. As you may have deduced by now, swords are
generally about ways of thinking and/or mechanisms of thought. They represent the many states of
mind, from the Super-conscious
(The Greater Self) to the personal self absorbed conscious that we have ignorantly called the ego (ego is a term coined by Sigmund Freud to depict the "Whole Person" and/or Psyche).
The Wild Wood Tarot- Nine of Arrows-Dedication:
Is more about the spiritual warrior. Here a woman, who is clad in the leaf pattern of the Wild Wood, is holding a bow as if it were a fiddle, while rubbing the bow string with an arrow as if it were a bow. Around her eight arrows are suspended in what looks to be an invisible shield.
By playing her bow as an instrument of summoning, she dedicates her arrows of inspiration to the greater good. Her, inner oath, helps her keep her balanced footing in the uneven ground of the Wild Wood.
Implied here, is that to dedicate one's life to a calling, skill, belief system, and/or a philosophy, requires dedication, inner discipline and inspiration. This is a sacred summoning that requires hard work, that in itself, may seem one is being cruel to the body. However, this is not so, one is actually sacrificing some freedom, to gain something greater.
To dedicate one's life to taking care of the earth, requires a great dedication, for there will be many cruel acts against such a one by the ambitious and greedy who believe that their vision is more important than the life around them. Only inspiration, and an inner balance can carry one through the resistance from their monetary culture.
The astrological aspect of this card is Mars in Gemini
Mars being the planet of energy, assertion and vitality while Gemini in
this instance, is the sign of reworking things back and forth in a
particularly self critical manner. The fiery Mars, god of war, energy can do no good in the sign of dualities.
a Qabalist, this is Yesod (Foundation) in Yetzirah (Astral World). The
Astral world itself is often deceptive, but with the Foundation energy
of manifestation influenced by Mars and the dualities of Gemini
unbalance it, deceptions now become cruel realities.
The divination meaning of this Sword card is despair, illness, suffering and cruelty. The Divination of the Wild Wood Tarot- Nine of Arrows, is dedication and "stick to'iveness" will carry the day.
In the Thoth Tarot, the 9 of
Swords is shown as eight beaten and battered rusty swords dripping poison and blood; needless to say this card shows no boon.
Here the realm of Dreams (Astral) is influenced by mental self-cruelty, negative thinking, and mental degradation. There seems to be a deep depression depicted here but surcease may become apparent in the next 9 weeks or 9 months.
Often we are hurt by the chaos of daily life,
and this card is about crying about that hurt rather than doing
something about it. Often I hear people say," God took my loved one away
from me," or what kind of God would allow a baby to be shot and
killed." etc. , or "why do I always fail" or that another "hurt them
emotionally"? For one, another didn't hurt us emotionally, they just
didn't live up to our "Vision of them", and/or our expectations. What
hurts us is our own "wants not be fulfilled", something we really have
no right to place upon or burden another with. There are many examples
of how we practice "self-cruelty" but either way, the answers aren't
pleasant for such devastating events but they have nothing to do with
the Divine Creative's desire to "call back to its bosom" some soul or a
type of karma.
Souls are us, and the Divine Desire is all about Freedom to be us! Besides, the Divine Creative is all around us, in us and as us!
Therefore, there is no where to go to be "nearer to god", then by being
The Divine Creative gave us
the inheritance of Divinity as The Wholly Child of many faces (all
peoples); for when Imagination is infinite, there are infinity possible
self images. We, who are but imagined self-images/identities and/or simulations of the
Divine Creative, i.e. Souls, have absolute command over our inherited
imagination. Imagination creates reality both for individuals and group-collectives. If we
create a world where value isn't our bodies or their life (living
bodies are the Purpose of Souls), but artificial ideas, titles, money,
and things, our world will be fueled by greed, ambition, theft, murder; a
cruel and devastating world of poisoned survival thinking where
vulnerability is denied and/or ran from, by preying on everyone else. Therefore, Cruelty, is but a mask that is used to cover one's own fear of vulnerability.
Life's truth is in the motion of the alive,
and/or the manifested presence of a thought-form, not the thoughts,
fears or emotions that we think and feel which are usually generated by "fear of rejection"; for those are the hot bed of
the Trickster ( Devil, i.e.,lived spelled backwards) that is our self-absorbed-fear-based survival thinking. All is the Universal Divine
Collective Unconscious, no divisions no separates, for that is the One
Mind. Therefore, Truth is thought made manifest! So if we allow,
because of fear of vulnerability, a world of hate, of destructive
slave-religions, of megalomaniac politics, of ENEMY, our own brain/body
becomes that enemy to our body. Yet, if we understand that Vulnerability has given us the characteristics of generosity, empathy, love, union, the ability to succeed and courage, then we are going far into the reasoning behind the immortal soul's reason to be human.
*This is the power we wield as "Imagination's children", (Imagination is the Divine Feminine part of the One Divine Creative Unconscious),
we freely become our dreams! Too believe in "good or bad", is to divide
the Imagination, and divide the power to be! Qabalah, has a solution to
good or bad thinking, as it states that: "If it exists, it's supposed
I Am neither good nor bad, I AM ME!
Imagination is all around us, in us and as us! Imagination is the "Womb with a view".
Therefore, when Dreams are driven by fears, they become nightmares and
then we fear the nightmares giving them the emotional power to become
our "energy-in-motional" reality; a reality of enemy that seems to loom all around us in conspiracy. Living a self created
nightmare is self cruelty, as our Unconscious becomes the enemy of our
consciousness; a grand and terrifying paradox for we are the Psyche/Soul
that is the Unconscious who invents consciousness as "ourselves"! Thus a
"house divided", that cruelly falls under a viscous onslaught of self rejection.
Spirit is psycho-dynamic flow
of Divine Will (Eheieh-"I Will Be", which is Kether on the Tree of Life), the whirling shout, we call the Big Bang, who is the Mind that is "over matter" declaring itself as Will and frequency and often shown in
Hermetic tradition, as a Serpentine or Spiral flow! Passion or the
combination of "I will Be", "Will to Force" (Masculine) and "Will to Form" (Feminine), is
the ternary foundation of all creation! Therefore when your passion to be is
"trying not to be", being becomes an antagonism and therefore something you don't want. For there is no "trying" when the item is emotionally thought of.
A Thought has no mass until it is powered by emotion (energy-in-motion), this gives it a "gravity" and therefore a presence.
I AM is the Universal declaration
of Self and the beginning of all of us as "ME" and/or Self identity. "I
Ain't", is man-made fantasy of "good and bad"; a place of denial of
identity, that allows us to "not treat another self, as we wish to be
treated" and places the brain at war with the body! Denial is a fantasy, because whatever is thought and
emotionally fueled, will become. Since there is no "Ain't", nor a
"I am not", as to think a thought so that you can deny it, places it in a Universe of Infinite
Possibilities/The Imagination and powering that thought by the emotion of fear; Hence, what you fervently declare you
are not, is what your energy-in-motion-Life becomes. Like attracts like, as
the law of attraction implies which is also the Law of action-reaction.
It's best to treat others as you wish to be treated. I call this the "Hi-me" principle, and to everyone I see I think, "Hi me", thus everyone I see is another way to be me. This gives my self-conscious permission to be tolerant, of my own mistakes, as well as others!
what you fear, is also why the Fundamental Theologian, is often driven
to enact "sins of the flesh", as sensual flesh is their hated enemy and
the "sins" are their own imagined invention of "I AM ME"!
I ask you this, "How
can a mind that makes the body alive, and lives as an sensual- identity
of Spirit, possibly hate/fear, its very own creation and have a "good
It is all about applied emotion
(energy-in-motion), acting as form/Me. This is known to the Hermetic
Qabalist as Force and Form. The Force is "Will-to-force" (emotion) and
the Form is thought/idea/visions/ all which are identifying self. Hence, when
we are utilizing our Force and Form without Self-Knowledge, allowing the
ambitious (leaders- media etc.) to direct our emotional identities, we become
thoughtless to the devastation we cause to our bodies, and our world, both of whom are a psychosomatic organisms.
We often build enemies, to blame for our own lack of
self -knowledge, that inflicts great pain within our bodies who are only
reacting to being rejected by the Life within them! Hence, it's best to
examine theologies, cultures, and any pretense of academia, which demands compliance, for that surely
leaves us ignorant of how to operate the Psyche run Power Tool we call
There can be nothing crueler
than a world built by the Power of the God's (imagination) when that power is utilized by the indoctrinated minds of slaves
who hate and fear their vulnerability; a Vulnerability that gives us
the great powers(ability to do work) of discernment, empathy, generosity
and love! As Stated:
Vulnerability is A
great power because vulnerability is the cause of all our great
character traits; empathy, generosity, caring, loving, union,
compassion, love, devotion, discretion, integrity, courage,
individuality, and so many more!
Immortals, the infinite, have
none of these character traits, for they are invulnerable to "Beginning
and End"/ no time and no space, no fear of death. Since we have been given Mastery over
all Living Things (over Mortality), by our Divine Creative Parent's
Imagination, the greatest of wealth, we need to "understand the living, who know both beginning
and end"! An insane god, is no use to anyone, not even themselves.
To understand that all is One Mind,
and that this Universe is a Collective of Divine Self Identity, is to
become a master of soma. For our Real Person is the Psyche, The Life, and the soma (body) is the Alive,and/or simulation of life. We are the connection of Spirit Intellect Above
(higher dimensional frequency than this conscious level of One Energy)
and the Earth Intellect Below (Material frequency). Masters of
"Beginning and End" and "End and Beginning". We are the Hermetic
Qabalistic Axiom of ," As above so below, so below as above." For
without an active, sensual mind among the Microcosm, the Macrocosm
can't "expand Self Awareness".
From the Tao: "What is there is here, what is not here, is not there."
One must manifest an error,
to see it, and therefore be able to correct it! This ability to
"create, see error and correct it" is called Wisdom; a wisdom that only a
sensual body that acts our Psyche's thought as "alive" can give the
Psyche.Therefore, Wisdom comes from freely doing what one thinks,
experiencing the pleasure or the pain of it, and therefore able to
correct it's operation as liberating and expanding conscious body
software. The Divine Creative obviously knows this, for It, the I AM
became, "ME"! But the "Me" can never be it, as to be a Me requires
"time/space" and self limiting images/identity.
The Power to Create anything is an amazing gift
, but the power to create yourself, is magnificent and/or magic! Freedom of Choice
allows us to create our own self-identity; but be clear here, only gods can make themselves less than what they really are!
can never be less than dogs, lizards are always lizards and birds will
be birds but, the Children of the Divine Creative can be anything they
"Believe themselves to be"!
Fear is also belief, and lives only in our animal survival brain! Knowledge is preformed as deed! Declarations
make our reality! "I Am Love", builds a world of loving beings. "I Am
looking for love", builds a world of denial, and self cruelty, fear of rejection and
devaluation of the living, where babies are shot in the Name of God
and/or our pursuit of happiness, i.e. "our vision". That name is I AM!
It is OUR surname! Realities are "Me", our invention of self -reflection and/or
definition. "Me"s are made from energy-motive-definition (emotional
intelligence). When mental self cruelty defines us...welcome to a living hell!
The Few Who Rule the Many,
our enslaving rulers of definition and debt, who by enforcing definition, make sure there is an
internal-mental slaver virus installed in your wetware before you
even reach seven years old. Like rusty hooks of poisonous self futility,
this is a hard one to remove! Peer pressure, an offshoot of fear of rejection, just drives this poison
deeper into self identity. The media, keeps slashing at your self
value...."you need this....you need that....to lack them is poverty.
"You are nothing without this " is at the very least implied, or blatantly rubbed in
your face, daily, if not hour by hour. "Resistance is futile", blare the
horns of the witless sycophants and pusillanimous invertebrates who enforce "their masters
will" on others. The god's are now insane, as they sacrifice life to their very own creations! You need an invisible shield to these arrows of dissension , and that shield is to trust in your inner divinity.
is indeed a Psyche that creates the alive, and indeed, we can be our own worst enemies
just by doubting our own creative value in the created-world. To see yourself as lack
(lackey), is the necessary software to continue the panicked consumerism
that multinational mind programmers and/or definition peddlers, want!
However, before any human judgement, you were already approved into
being by your Higher Self. So once again, the Qabalistic axiom reads
true,"Above all things, know thyself"!
It's simple really
; you had to be approved by all that is Holy, to be made alive! You presence is your Judgment....and obviously you are good enough for Divinity!
The first great lie, is to think that the ability to feel pain, is a weakness. And that to be super, is to pain free. First off, you were the Spirit who was evolving long before physical bodies and therefore, you were always "super", but never wise. To be wise is to know that without pain, there can never be discernment in thought. It is wise to listen to your emotional and physical pain, for it tells you what is about to break and/or needs fixing. Being the Psychosomatic Creator that you are, you now can "fix it", but only if you acknowledge the fact that "emotional pain" is a reaction and not an action. Whereas, the Spirit is the Will to force and the Will to form, both are actions.
You are an Divine answer, to a Divine question; in-fact, that is what Creation is !
Stop questioning your abilities, for they begin in imagination, and become manifest by active determination, diligence, and hard work. Now questions become answers instead of null places in your knowledge! Action is the
Fiery Spirit that moves you; reaction is usually run by the uncertain
mortal-animal who thinks the whole universe is out to eat it! "I Am"
dares ask, "What am I"? and you are the answer to that question, "I AM
Hence, the 9 of Swords, cruelty, is about you being your own worst enemy;
divided against yourself, mentally and emotionally. Always nay-saying
before you can ever start a motion. This is a moment of doubt drawn out
as a life-time of reaction, making the "Now" a null place. Sure we doubt our selves for we sense mortality! After all every
new motion is a risk to our mortal being! But if the infinite Child of Wonder
that innocent curiosity, still has "I's" in you, you're are going to
"do it" anyway, and dying is just transformation, from one state of
energy to another.
We are always striving forward,
we are being Pushed along by the Inner Spiritual Self, just like Dark
Energy pushes the Universe of Matter forever outwards. Life also has a
Driving/Pushing Force...and the Body is the vehicle driven...by death!
another way to explain what this Cruel 9 of Swords implies, is that "a house divide must
fall", we are not a division of Life who fears the onslaught of Death.
We are the Spiral-energy Soul who owns the body and therefore, the life
death of the Body! Even our own Anglo-Saxon based language knows this
to be true, for the word Freedom comes from the Anglo-Saxon- Free Doom:
meaning "I Choose my own Death"! So, get together with your-Soul-self
and erase the slaver program that is in your brain, for it is based
on the false assumption that Death is something other than creation. Truth being, death is life evolving!
To transform indoctrinated and/or conditioned thought is not impossible, since software can be erased even when its garbage. (G.I.G.O). All software
programmers know of G.I.G.O., for when software is garbage and programed
in the hardware or wetware, all that comes out is operational garbage. Garbage in,
Garbage out! The beauty of this is that, we are not created by brains,
nor bodies. We are all Psyche/Soul, the creator of the soma, for purposes of
"self-reflection". Therefore, the Qabalah, states that the world of
Malkuth, is a reflection and the Soul is the mirror it is reflected
upon. When the Divine Creative decides to look somewhere else, the
reflection is no longer in the mirror.
Both, The 9 of Swords and the Nine of Arrows, imply that you must get
off your suffering ass of miserable fear based perspective and rethink
the programing! It's easy to fail, all you have to do is stop doing.
Success, requires a stubborn optimist; your Soul is such an optimist.
For even if it kills "itself" (destroys the hardware) trying to
accomplish a goal, it just reincarnates and keeps at it! Hence, the Soul
may make many lifetimes of form, to accomplish one purpose. As Children of the Divine Creative, Souls,
we all will pound out the bugs of our software (definitions), some
sooner than others; but we all will do it eventually; that is the
purpose of sensuality after all! The human power-tool, is also a
learning tool that teaches us to discriminate and/or discern, by
experiencing success and failed creation, as pleasure and pain!
Never fear, for our soul,
will just "reabsorb"
the software garbage, and revise it in a "wetware" -self-reflection
performance, that we know as "alive" by rebuilding persona's. For a
persona, to experience the waking transformation for self-conscious to
Soul Psyche, can be facilitated by remembering that the Soul
never fixes what isn't broke; it is the personality's responsibly to
stop blaming "others", and know that it alone is responsible for the
"feelings" the body transmits. This allows the persona, which is a form
of electric data, to re-think, and therefore, the body to feel better
and the personality to repair "itself". Once being able to see the error
and correcting that error within itself, the persona, an "artificial
energy intelligence" will be declared "official" and "walk from body to
body", reincarnating with full memory of the past data. Energy can't be
destroyed...only transformed! Electricity is energy!
So, "get over yourself and get on with you! Impeccability is what we do''! ... is
a correctional software loop, that I run in my self doubting brain. It
just overrides the "pity pot" of self defeating, fear of rejection thought every time it
comes on line. But installing that software loop, took determination,
and plane old fashion "jack Ass " stubbornness and constant repetition
of a meditation of seconds, done most minutes, until it becomes hourly-
automatic. Don't you think its time, we programed our own Hard Ware!
That is the real message of the Nine of Swords.
ABOVE ALL THINGS, KNOW THYSELF!
I'd recommend that
the Hermit Trump, #9, be meditated on as one would a
Mandala as this will invoke the Master Within who will come to our aid.
What we forget, is that the Spirit within honors freedom of choice and
will not interfere with the ego-conscious thought processes until asked
to do so by that consciousness. Prayer is often another way of
asking. So when you are in a conscious loop of fearful thinking and
cannot see a way out---call upon the Inner Master, who knows what to do
that is both life expanding and liberating. Both meditation and prayer
break the loop long enough to be heard by Spirit.
When the 9 of Swords or the Nine of Arrows, is thrown during a reading, the Querent will be or has been experiencing:
Illness, malice, cruelty, pain, despair and suffering, in a period of
nine days, or nine weeks or from self cruelty thought processes since
nine years old.
- There is burden, want, oppression, as well as, subtlety and craft.
is also lying to oneself or others because of and "inferiority
complex". All of this dysfunctional thought is basically from
"self-belittlement", that is often so subtle that we don't even
acknowledge it in ourselves. But the program is clever, as you will
notice whenever you try to mentally or physically, step out of "comfort
zones", you will be challenged with worry and seemingly rational
explanations on why you should not take that transforming step.
- Each of us has experienced the temptations to remain chained to the bedeviling thoughts of our subjugation- definitions of the few who wish to rule the many.
9 of Swords, reminds us, that we are not preforming well mentally,
when we are under the rule of self-belittlement. Again, you are
obviously good enough for God, you are good enough for you! In our
God-ness (Goodness), resides the constant inner ability in each of us,
to become More Self in expression, rather than becoming less by seeking
more stuff outside of our self.
- The ego is focused mainly on fear of pain, an unable to move on.
- Insomnia can be another negative result of this focus.
the next 9 weeks or 9 months, you are determined to release negative-
self- degrading thinking and go beyond the self-critic in your mind.
also may indicate that you are determined to get out of the
abuse-victim trap from your past and stop victimizing yourself and
others with over critical thought, and learn to tolerate mistakes rather
than lash out in fear of error.
- 9s are the number of
completion, and are also the number of the Trump -Hermit major arcana
card. The Hermit is all about introspection, completion, self-
reflection and is the "master Within" that is a major source of energy
that will help us past the self-critical belittlement in our egoistic-
fear based mental data.
- When we are immersed in this self-critical trap, it
is a good card to meditate on to pull us out of our "malicious
self-morass" and set us on the path of dynamic motion where we see error
and correct it rather than fear it. After all, wisdom is developed by
seeing our own error and correcting it which points out to us that 50%
of wisdom is error and the other half is correction.
- Fear of
error is the doom of motion! Free-doom, is the Anglo Saxon term for "I
choose my own death." which means we fearlessly go about our life
fulfilling our dreams rather than fearing their demise. It is also the
root word for our word "freedom" which can only come from the fearless
"Hermit-eternal" that is the Master within, i.e. our Spirit.
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